Learning a Lot About Myself

August 31st, 2012 by betterat50

Weigh in #12 today, 3 more pounds gone, total of 44. That’s awesome to me, I can’t believe I’m actually accomplishing this..me..not just other people, me. I’m so excited that positive changes are happening for me.

As amazing as the weight loss is for me, it’s also amazing to me that I’m learning a lot about myself, my eating habits and my emotions. As Hurricane Isaac approached us this week, I went into storm mode. Apparently, in the past, days off cooped up at home were just an excuse to cook, snack and gain weight. I did cook gumbo, but I ate it without the rice. No dips, chips, bread. No desserts, cookies, poptarts. For me, still veggies, meat, ideal protein packets. I realized that I used to eat a lot out of boredom, restlessness, and habit. I know these things have changed. I did miss the comfort food during this storm, but not as much as I thought I would. I’m guessing that over time, it will get even better. I didn’t cave in to the comfort food tempation, so, I guess I also learned that I’m stronger than I thought.

49 more days until my cruise, 27 more lbs lost is my goal for that time.

A Landmark Day in my World!

August 21st, 2012 by betterat50

So far, since I started this IP journey, I have been wearing my same old clothes and grabbing a few smaller clothes out of my closet, bought during previous “diets”. But today I came to terms with the fact that even those are too big and I needed to shop a little. So I headed to a clearance sale.

Here’s the big news…. I didn’t even go into the Plus size department. Everything I bought was on the clearance rack in the misses department. I haven’t been able to shop in this area in over 20 years.

There’s not much more to this story than that. This is a victory I didn’t think I would ever see, it was only a dream to me. Of course, I realize, I still have a long way to go. But this small little mini-goal has been accomplished.

What I learn from this today is that being at a healthy weight is possible. I’m not doomed to carry around enough extra pounds to make another person for the rest of my life. Another mini-goal accomplished is that I can now cross my legs comfortably. These little things I took for granted before the weight piled on, I’ll never take for granted again.

It’s time to set a few more mini-goals and watch them happen. Thank you Lord for directing me in getting my life back.

Writing with a little tear in my eye….

August 18th, 2012 by betterat50

5 years ago (I know because the receipt was still in the bag), I bought a pair of size 16 jeans as incentive to stay on the diet that was succeeding at that moment. I had lost a few lbs, gotten into a tight 18 and knew any minute I would be able to happily and comfortably be able to breathe while sitting in those 16’s. That day never came. I hit a plateau, gained a few lbs back and gave up.

I humbly report that today, today, August 18th, 2012, I am wearing those jeans. They’ve been in their bag at the top of my closet since that hopeful day that I walked out of the store with them. I have them on, comfortably breathing, bending, moving around all day.

In other news of non-scale victories, I can see my wrist bone again, comfortably cross my legs (still room for improvement, but I can do it), a friend told me my shirt was way too big for me (a shirt that was too tight for me to wear only 2 months ago). So many little things here and there. Lots of things that wouldn’t mean anything to anyone else, especially those who never had a weight struggle. Before the extra pounds came on, I took a lot of things for granted I think. This week I’ll be finding a pair of size 14 jeans on sale somewhere to hang in my closet until I can wear them. Maybe 5 weeks from now, definitely not 5 years!

Down another 2 pounds this week, I still thank God every day that He led me to Ideal Protein and I know that this truely will be the last diet I’ll ever be on.

Crazy Day vs Crazy Day

August 14th, 2012 by betterat50

Since starting this IP program 9 weeks ago, I’ve tried very hard to get into a routine so that I’m sure to get in all the pieces of the puzzle during the day. It goes like this: coffee when I get up, sip it while getting ready for the day. Shake around 9:30 or 10, salad or vegetables around noon or 1, yummy protein bar around 3:30 or 4, protein/vegetable dinner around 6:30, last shake around 9. It usually works for me. But NOT TODAY! My whole schedule was wayyyyyy out of whack.

I had to be at work at 8am. That doesn’t agree with me. So, I got up, had a little coffee, got dressed. I ran out of the house with the rest of my coffee and a full glass of water. I only had to work until 10. Only 2 hours. My plan was to finish my coffee, drink some water, go home and have my usually morning shake at 10:15ish along with the usual supplements. But then…. a friend texted for a coffee visit. I REALLY wanted to visit with her, so I left work and headed to the coffee shop thinking I would be home in an hour or so and would still be pretty close to back on schedule. But NOOOOOOO, 3 hours later, we’re hugging bye in the parking lot and I was starving. I hurried home, grabbed a bar, filled my water glass again and ran out the door because I remembered an errand I had to finish before 2, ran 3 more errands with it. I got back home by 4, had my shake (which should have been breakfast), ate cucumber/spinach salad. It was almost 8 before I could choke down 2 eggs scrambled with peppers and spinach. At 10:00 I got that last shake in.

My work schedule is different every day. After all the chaos of today, before I fussed at myself so badly for being unprepared, I took a minute to reflect back on what a crazy day was like before IP. First, I would have picked up a biscuit and coffee at a fast food place on my way to 8am work. I would have still gone to coffee with my friend, had a mocha, (not plain old coffee), probably would have also had a muffin or cookie. I would have gone through a drive thru at 1pm, had my usual fried chicken sandwich, fries (diet coke to keep it seeming ok) and went on with my 3 hours of errands. After arriving back at home, I probably would have had a snack like peanut butter and crackers, cookies or maybe just munched on left overs in the fridge. For dinner I would still have had my scrambled eggs with cheese, onions, peppers and bacon along with a biscuit (we like breakfast for dinner and that’s what we were having tonight). Just before bed, I would have indulged in a small cup of ice cream.

Wow, how things change. So today I learned, I need to be prepared just in case my routine gets changed and I also learned that I am capable of staying on program no matter what the day throws at me. It’s a great feeling to know that my food decisions aren’t left at the mercy of a hectic day anymore. Thank you Lord for the progress.

Waiting for the other shoe to drop

August 3rd, 2012 by betterat50

8 weeks on ideal protein. 8 weeks, 56 days, 1,344 hours without carbs. No pasta, no potatoes, no rice, no bread, no crackers, no pizza, no dessert, the list goes on… Hello, I’m a carbaholic. For 50 years carbs have been the foundation of my eating plan. How am I surviving without pizza, cheeseburgers, biscuits, french fries?

Here’s the answer, 4 more pounds lost this week for a total of 34 in those 8 weeks. I was telling someone yesterday that it’s no longer habit for me to munch on chips and salsa at Mexican restaurants or snack on bread & butter at the steakhouses. Something that I used to do mindlessly at every meal, I can’t even imagine myself doing anymore. In only 8 weeks, habits that formed over a lifetime have been broken. Do I have my moments of tempation? Sure, I could have hit my sweet husband over the head a couple of nights ago to steal his blueberry poptart. I don’t even like blueberry poptarts, but it smelled so good. Needless to say, I let him enjoy the poptarts all by himself.

I’m keeping my eye on the goal, no carb is worth losing this momentum and setting back progress. I keep waiting for that moment that I throw in the towel, but as of now, it’s not even an option.

what’s a girl to do?

July 28th, 2012 by betterat50

I lost 3 more pounds this week, 30 total in 7 weeks. Yep, I’m still beyond excited! I tried a couple of different meals this week. I’ve been trying to stick to either a grilled chicken breast, small steak or hamburger patty for my protein. Plain and simple works for me. But this week I ventured into a bell pepper stirfry with my chicken. Wonderful color and very tasty. I also tried using cauliflower in the place of mashed potatoes in a good old fashioned shepard’s pie. It was amazing. I’ve heard about this for years and never thought I would like it. But the cauliflower was so close to the consistency of potatoes I actually almost felt a little guilty. It will have a place on my regular menu.

What I’m learning along the way is that I can live without all the carbs I was eating. I won’t die if I don’t have dessert with every meal, bread with every meal, and that there are healthier alternatives that are actually good. I’m beginning to realize just how often I ate only carbs during a day. I wasn’t a big meat eater, so potatoes, pasta, bread, etc was my go too foods when I was pressed for time, stressed, hungry, or just when it was meal time in general. I don’t see myself slipping back into those old habits now that I’m recognizing them. I have a long way to go before I can move out of phase 1 and start re-introducing other things back into my food choices.

I’m excited to see the pounds and inches go, excited to be learning new things about my eating habits. I’ll try to experiment with a couple of new recipes this week to expand my menu. I’m in this for the long haul, so I guess I better start getting adventurous. Rhubarb and rutabaga will be on my shopping list for the first time in my life!

and it continues….

July 20th, 2012 by betterat50

Today was my weigh in day. Like almost everyone, I’ve been on other “diets” and had other weigh in days. I usually dreaded the weigh in, not sure if I lost anything or not, did I gain. I followed it almost the same (and perfectly I might add) every week, yet the results were so unpredictible. I would go, pay my money, hop on the scale and close my eyes waiting for the comment, either “good job” or “it’s not that bad”. Either way, I would leave feeling like I had worked way too hard for the result I saw. Then, the beginning of the end would come, a gain two or three weeks in a row, a trip to Olive Garden to help me feel better and then, QUIT. “Why should I pay my money to gain weight, I know this stuff, I’ll do it on my own”. But inside, I knew I was giving up for a while, discouraged and defeated and usually almost at the same weight as when I started months earlier.

But today, and all my previous IP weigh-ins have been different. I wake up anxious to go see the number, knowing with certainty that I’ve lost weight. Week 1, 8lbs, week 2, 4lbs, week 3, 2lbs, week 4, 4lbs, week 5, 5lbs, and today, week 6, 4lbs. Yep, even with limited math skills I can come up with 27lbs lost in only 6 weeks. That’s averaging over 4lbs per week. 10 inches in my waist alone.

I say all of that to answer the question, “How can you stick with such a restrictive diet?” RESULTS! I don’t live in a pollyanna world where I think I’ll drop 100lbs over night without any effort. I’m sure I might hit a plateau or my losses will decrease. But at this point, I am beyond excited and will hang in there until I can comfortably cross my legs, fit in an airplane seat, shop in the misses department of every store and be at a healthy weight for the first time in over 20 years. I’m already 1/4 of the way to my goal!

Any Victory is worth Mentioning

July 17th, 2012 by betterat50

Today was one of those restless kind of days. I tried the IP chocolate pancakes cooked in the waffle maker (I read this was like a brownie), yuck, didn’t like that. I choked down most of it. Later, I opened by bowl of standby cucumbers and they were not good anymore. What happened, they were good yesterday? I made myself eggs with spinach and bellpeppers for dinner and proceeded to start feeling sorry for myself. In the past, this is where I would have gotten in the car, driven to Sonic and had an Oreo Blast to help me feel better. BUT TODAY, I got in the car and drove myself to World Market to look for a new desk, I stopped in a clothing store to try on a size smaller than I wear to see how close I am….way better than an oreo blast. I am already down 2 sizes in 5 weeks, that 3rd size down is sooooooo close. And at that point, I’ll officially be able to shop outside the “Plus” size department. This is a huge goal for me. I’m thinking in 1 or 2 more weeks, I’ll be writing about that victory.

But for tonight, no blast, that’s the victory.

My Last Diet!

July 15th, 2012 by betterat50

I was very slow to admit I’m on yet another diet. If you’re anything like me, you’ve tried everything possible to lose weight. I am now ready to go public with my latest diet. Why am I going public? Because I am so dog gone excited about it. Here’s what’s happened so far:

My husband and I are planning a vacation for our 31st anniversary in October, a cruise! I’ve always wanted to go on a cruise. My first thought was, OMG, I’m 100lbs over weight, what am I going to do on a cruise ship? I want to be able to enjoy the pool, the outdoor activities, the shore excursions, I want to zipline without worrying that I’ll break the line (irrantional I know, but still in my head).

Through a crazy assortment of things, I made the decision to try Ideal Protein. Long story short, I’ve lost 23lbs in 5 weeks. I know, it’s almost too good to be true. I can’t believe it myself. I haven’t been hungry, I haven’t really missed the carbs, sugar, fatty foods I used to eat. I’ve enjoyed experimenting a little with different salads at our usual restaurants. And, now that I’m feeling a little more comfortable with the program, I’m looking forward to trying some of the many, many recipes I’ve seen online for IP friendly meals.

I think anyone who has had a significant weight issue understands that moment of truth, when you know you can’t go one more day without making a change. In Janurary I turned 50. I’ve been overweight for over 20 years. I’ve always felt pretty good, didn’t feel like I missed out on too much because of my weight. But the last 5 or 10 lbs that came on recently changed how I felt. I was very tired and was dropping into a little depression. After much prayer and much desperation, I know this is the solution and I thank God everyday that I had the courage to start yet another diet.

If you have had success on IP, please feel welcome to comment, share your tricks, recipes, successes. I’ll keep you posted weekly. I meet with my IP coach on Friday mornings. This blog will hopefully help to keep me motivated, accountable and dropping those pounds before and again after the cruise.