One Week Challenege (6/27-6/3)

[MistySeptember]

Good morning all! We made it home at 1 am this morning. The trip was good, my eating was bad. I started out trying but we didn't actually end up eating somewhere healthy until yesterday for dinner. We missed meals with our family b/c we were traveling between my husband's family and my own and in the end we ate fast food b/c we had to hurry. This happened b/c my husband refused to commit to a schedule or plan. He was constantly changing his mind and it got very old very fast. But really it was an enjoyable trip and it was great to see everyone.

WELCOME BARB! I didn't get a chance to read all of your post b/c my contacts are still in the car and I am wearing an old pair of glasses and I can't really see LOL. But i will read it as soon as I get a break.

Well despite my best efforts and running myself into the ground my house did not get as clean as I had hoped before we left. So I need to get that done and everything unpacked and washed before tomarrow. Fun fun fun. have a great day everyone. When I get a chance to think and breathe and my kids aren't tossing junk may from the trash can all over my office I will think about my goals and post some
~misty

[Jen]

Hey Misty. Glad you had a good trip but too bad your eating was off plan. Oh well, these things happen when travelling. Your husband (from what you have described) sounds like the type that does things on the spur of the moment and that makes it difficult to plan healthy eating. My husband is similar in that he doesn't seem to be hungry when I am so I end up waiting and then I'm starving when we finally do eat and I eat more than I want to. Since I've got my son to feed now we eat at regular times and if my husband isn't hungry well too bad for him. I think we eat a lot healthier now because I'm trying to set my son a good example. He loves his veggies and fruits and of course he loves junk too but those are treats that he doesn't get all the time.

My weight is actually up this morning but I'm refusing to change my ticker because I will swear on a stack of bibles that it is all water. It is TOM and because of the humidity I KNOW I am retaining water. My feet are actually swelling up in the evenings. I know it is just the humidity and not some medical condition because it went away when we had a couple of weeks of cooler weather. So I am making a goal for this week and that is to drink 6 little bottles of water a day and hopefully that will help to flush out all this water I am accumulating. There is a grocery store here that has cases of water on sale and I've bought 2 already. I'm going to buy a bunch this week and stock pile them so that I've got no excuse not to drink water. Hopefully by next week my weight will be down a few lbs getting rid of this water!

[Jen]

Hey there. Things are so-so right now. My husband is being a jerk and so things haven't been very pleasant at home. Also I haven't worked much, not since last Wednesday so my next pay isn't going to look very good unless I get a lot of shifts in the next week. I have one shift booked on Tuesday so I'd like to get at least 3 more between now and Wednesday but I have the feeling that's not going to happen. That's kind of stressful as well.

Well I've been not too bad though with my water consumption. Definately got them all in on Monday, only about 4 on tuesday but made my goal already today. With this heat it really isn't too tough to get a lot of fluids down. Saturday is supposed to be a bit cooler so I'm really looking forward to that.

I got to the gym twice this week, will go again tomorrow I think. I've been working on getting back into the weight training I was doing before. I think I need to start building up some muscle that is going to boost my metabolism.

How is everyone else's week going?

[MistySeptember]

Good Morning!

I'm sorry to hear about your husband. I had hoped things were getting better for you Jen. I also hope you get some more shifts, I know how that goes, it's been a hwile but I still remember. Great job on eating pretty well through the stress and keeping up on exercise!

I am not doing well. I am back up to 210.5 on Monday. 211 yesterday and I couldn't bring myself to look today. Bad bad bad. I am eating like there is no tomarrow. I don't need a one week challenege I need a one day challenge! I read something this week that caught my eye it said "Date your Diet." What they meant was feel free to try new things when you get in a rut, don't stay married to a plan that is no longer working. They said somethings work some of the time, then you may need a kick start with something else. I liked that. I can see how it might be easy to jump around from plan to plan...which is not good...but I like that it allows me to giv emy self permisssion to try things and find what works for me rather than be stuck in one routine.

I also need to get this week long program out of my head. I keep thinking OH my whole week is shot! B/c when I was doing WW if I had a bad eating day and I used all my banked or flex points then my week was shot, there was no room for error the rest of teh week, which had it advantages. But I'd often say oh well and binge the rest of the week and start over Monday. I am going to a daily thought process. Each day has certain things I need to do and I need to stick to it. I had really really hoped to get to a certian point by the end of this month. I was going to reward myself with a weekend away, but it's not gonna happen. I still may take the weekend. I am sick and tired of being tied down to this house. I love my kids to death, but I feel like a single parent with an occasional visitor. I totally get that I have an easy life for the most part, but I seriously need some me time. In his spare time he gets to fly and farm, in mine I am limited to what I can do within these walls with 2-4 kids.

Well not sure if kids 3 and 4 are coming today. it would have been nice to know ahead of time, instead I got up at 6 am and he will probly call at 9 am when he gets. Wish I could sleep until 9! Tomarrow I am at my mom's. I hope her kids behave!!!

~misty

[Jen]

I know what you mean about getting through one day at a time and trying not to say 'the heck with this week, it's shot so I might as well binge until Monday'. I've had those exact same thoughts. Some days it is getting through one hour or one minute at a time.

Don't weigh yourself every day!!!! We know that is self defeating because weight flucuates so much every day. I was this close to weighing myself this morning but I made myself walk away from the scale. It really doesn't help your frame of mind so I want your promise no weighing in til Monday!

I only got through 3 bottles of water yesterday but I had 2 cups of milk and a big glass of lemonade so I'm definately getting lots of fluids but I can do better!

Generally things have been better with my husband. We had a tiny blow out on Tuesday and it just kills me sometimes how selfish he is. What he said was about the same as saying that he wishes we weren't around. I think sometimes that he wants the benefits of having a wife and child but not the responsibilities or coping with the sacrifices that you have to make. He thinks he has made a lot of sacrifices already but it isn't anything above what he should have been doing in the first place. Anyway I was really upset about it tuesday night and Wednesday morning and then I went to the gym and it helped a lot mentally to get in a good workout.

Well hope you have a good day with the kids. Take care.

[MistySeptember]

Hello!

Jen, No more weighing myself. I promise. I can't seem to stop, but I will. I am sorry your husband said those hurtful things. What is it with men that all they see is the minor things they give up and they can't seem to notice what everyone else around them is giving up too? I really hop ethings smooth out and he appreciates all that you do for your family. You are doing well on your fluid intake, GREAT JOB!

Well have a great day! I need to go pack the diaper bag and my lunch and stuff for my mom's house today. They are thinking about getting central air, I wish they already had it!

~misty

[Jen]

I know it is hard to stop weighing yourself because we want to see some success for our hard work. I think the possible disappointment outweighs how you'd feel if you were down a bit so it's not worth it in the long run. Also like you said you're more likely to give up altogether than be remotivated to improve.

My husband had an appt with a pyschiatrist who after reviewing his history and asking a zillion questions said that he didn't need to be on antidepressants, he wasn't depressed and for his anger problems he could go to anger management therapy. Yeah right! Then he saw his family dr after that and they talked about it. She said it was his decision to make so he's decided to stop taking them. I am so po'd at this psychiatrist. Like all that has been holding his moods together are these meds. I think it is a huge mistake but I guess we'll see what happens.

Yeah the husbands never see the sacrifices WE make. I'm up at the crack of dawn everyday because our son is up and he is too young to let him get up on his own even if he is just going to sit in front of the tv and have breakfast. hubby is still in bed. Who gets up in the middle of the night when the child has a bad dream? Who gave up a full-time job so that the husband could pursue his hobbies (a huge, huge, huge mistake)? I'm hoping to get back into a full-time spot soon and I don't take what it takes to keep it, if we have to hire a nanny or something to be there at odd hours because I work 12 hour shifts. We lost so much when I gave up that job. I'd be making about $30/hr, have benefits, paid vacation, working regular hours, have the security of a regular paycheque.

Anyway that is water under the bridge. I try not to dwell on it because being depressed about it doesn't do any good but it can be very frustrating when hubby starts pulling his bullsh!t.

Have a good day at your mom's. Hope it isn't too hot. Take care.

[Jen]

Very, very bad day. I don't know what I am doing!!!! Why, why, why????

I eat like crap and then I am wondering why I am not losing weight?!? Come on Jen, what the f@@@ is my problem???

I am so tired of being fat. I see my reflection in mirrors and it is so depressing. I need to get a few pounds off to get my motivation going. I really just don't know what to do anymore. I really need to try something like Dr. Phil's rapid start program again because it really did work for me, it is so hard though to stay away from anything processed.

I was at my mom's today and she's got a mirror sitting on the floor right across from the chair I usually sit in. Try looking at yourself from that view, it is extremely discouraging because all I could see was fat legs, fat stomach and triple chins.

Sorry, I needed to vent that. I'm hoping that I am at least back down to 228 where I started. Geez, 8 weeks to go on my summer challenge and I've done squat.

[Jen]

Hi there. Well I'm back again after my last rant. I went up to get ready for bed and I decided to step on the scale. I know that this is not the best thing in the world to do but I decided I had better own up to the number that it is going to be on Monday and of course I am up at 234.6. I'm expecting that it might be 1 or 2 lbs different by morning as I usually do have that flucuation but no way is it going to be back down to 228 on Monday so I might as well stop kidding myself. So I'm going back on the rapid start plan as of tomorrow. It will be really difficult to change the way I've been eating but I need something to jump start my loss.

[Tesse]

Hi Jen

I was browsing through the different threads when I came across this thread. After reading your post I felt like my head was spinning. It's no wonder you cant lose weight, you have got way to much going on in your mind. I hope I am not coming off in a negative way because I really feel for you. Weight problems are not the cause of your problems, it sounds like it is the effects. I was just thinking that maybe if you would just stop dieting and stay off the scales for a couple of days and try to look at your situation from the outside in you would see your worth is much more than what the scale says. You would also see that even with out your husbands support you can find your self worth and take care of yourself. And in return you will want to take care of your body and the pounds should start coming off.
I hope I didnt over step my boundries with my opinion. I wish you well and if I could help in any way, I would.
Tesse