So I have 281 days until I turn 30. My current weight is 217.5. It's a number I can barley face. But ok. I can't justify WW meetings right now. I totally blew my 6 month membership, going only about half the time. Not only did I not lose weight in that time I am above my weight when I started WW July 5th of 2005!
So I pulled up my old excel file that I created with my WW journal. I lost 30 pounds doing WW this way when my son was born...almost TWO YEARS ago. I can do it again.
I've kind of been in a tail spin. But I am losing more and more of my life each day trapped in this body. My clothes don't fit, I'm tired, achy and grumpy. I have had headaches and acid reflux from all the junk I have been eating. I just can't do this to myself. Or my kids. DD, bless her heart, has started to notice that some people look different than others and pointed out to the girl who helps me during the week, that she has a fat Mommy, and some Mommys are not fat. But hers is fat. What did I do with that? I got depressed and ate like a crazy fat person for two weeks. It breaks my heart. These kids are my world and I am failing them.
So here I am. I would like to lose 82.5 pounds With only 40 weeks until my 30th birthday this will be next to impossible. So I am going to aim to be 150. I weighed 150 when I was 18 and met my husband. At the time you would not have guessed that I was 150. I was packed with muscle, with a 6 pack and all. I may not get that back, but I can get to 150...I hope.
I am picking up my challenge to myself. I am not setting a time frame, just a weekly commitment. Anyone can join me if they would like.
This week's commitment:
Stay within my points. That's it.