Like I said in the general thread I stayed the same this week. I had a bit of a poutfest last night. But now I am newly motivated. I've joined a challenge on the Dr. Phil board and one of my goals is to do my 12 week treadmill workout.
I did the first workout today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know this may not seem like a fantastic feat in the big scheme of things. But for me this is a huge deal. I have this thing, it's like this warped perfectionism. Maybe it's some kind of skewed OCD. I get in my head I have to exersice at 5 am. I have to get it done before the kids get here. I have to start working out on the hour, half, hour or quarter hour, so I end at an even time. I have to have everything ready the night before, clothes laptop, shoes treadmill. I have to start new exercise programs on Wednesday (the first day of my WW week). If I do not meet these criteria I can't bring myself to actually do it. I tell myself I wil wait until next week when I can do it perfectly. I ahve to begine walking the exact second the song comes on (I workout to music on my laptop so I can watch the swirly stuff on media player), unless I have one of my shows on DVD and then I have to start the exact second the show starts. I will stop and start until I get it right (and then get stressed out b/c my time is thrown off LOL)
Until today. I woke up late, the headlights of the lady I watch kids for woke me up. Nothing was ready. I had to find my clothes, sock and shoes (I am very picky about what I wear working out). I had to move the diaper pail and shelf that holds clean diapers, along with toys and kiddie chairs so I could even open the treadmill. I found my laptop, and started the music then got the treadmill going. I started at like 6:18 or something, and I did a 30 minute workout. So my cd wasn't over when I finsihed (which also throws me off). But I stopped picked up the treadmill, replaced the diaper pail and shelf.
I am so proud of myself. I am gonna meet my goals this time.