Stephanie... AWESOME job on the weigh-in this week! Congratulations!
HippoHips: I think I missed the post where you talked about all that's going on in your life, but I am getting the gist of it. You really are an inspiration. And as uncontrollable as everything else must seem, at least you know that you can be in control of your health, eating and weight loss. Take some comfort in that, as well as in the fact that there are a bunch of us here who are rooting for you to succeed (at the scale and in life) and are here for you.
I hope you don't mind me being this forward with my thinking about things you wrote about your hubby and how you were feeling when he was sick. I heard a lot of concern about his health in your writing, which is natural and shows that you are a loving soul. I mean, in spite of the marital troubles, he is a person that you care about. But I also heard a lot of concern about how he would interpret the things you do and don't do or say and don't say. Hon, you can drive yourself crazy with that. You need to be yourself, follow your instincts and not beat yourself up over how he might react to something some time in the future. You expressed concern for him; you tried to get him to see a doctor. You did your part; he's a big boy and can make his own choices. If he chose not to take you up on your offers to help and, worse, would choose in the future to either a) accuse you of trying to "trick" him by being nice or b) accuse you of not caring because you didn't express enough concern, then it's HIS karma, not yours, that will suffer. You found yourself in an emotional catch-22 -- damned if you do and damned if you don't -- and you shouldn't have to deal with that. That's why, in the end, you can only do what your heart tells you to do and let the chips fall where they may. I hope I didn't overstep my bounds here. But I've been in this position, and I learned the hard way. I nearly ate myself alive trying to do what was "right." I know things seem so bleak right now but, trust me, you will survive, no matter what. {{{HH}}}
Oh, and what a great idea for keeping the stress demon at bay during interviews. I bet you could also do it was a tissue sprtized with some lavender, which is a great relaxation scent.
Diva: Good for you for resisting the demon sugar at your training! And you touched on what is perhaps the best thing about WW. Every day IS a new day. You can atone for your "sins" and start fresh every AM. I was starving last night after I finished all my points (and all my flex points are gone too from the weekend). I stopped myself three times from going downstairs and pigging out with this thought: Tomorrow morning, when I wake up, I'll have 30 new points to play with.
Misty, I love your posts! The blueberry-lime jelly sounds kind of unusual. Is it tasty? Those aren't two flavors I would think about putting together! Oh, all the blueberry talk reminds me of one of my fave treats: Frozen blueberries in a cup with ff milk poured over them. The milk gets all freezy, and it all winds up like some freaky sorbet thing. Low points, plus lots of fiber and calcium.
You all are so great about keeping up with each other's posts. I suck, and I'm sorry. It's so hard to write anything meaningful here at work. No one seems to respect a closed office door! And when I get home, my computer is in the un-air-conditioned living room and my air conditioner is in the bedroom. Guess where I hide out? But please know that I am reading, posting when I can and I always, every day, include each and every one of you in my prayers, both for your weight loss goals and lives in general. I'm so thrilled that we all joined to gether like this.
Have a great day everyone. I have a special eating challenge in that we have a company luncheon today, which usually means hoagies, pasta salad, green salad and cookies. Wish me luck. I'm thinking half a turkey hoagie (hope they put the mayo on the side) and some green salad. Maybe a cookie.