. In those years, I've managed to gain 100 lbs and lose my enthusiasm for staying healthy. This time feels so different. Instead of hearing the voices say "it's only until you lose the weight...then you can have this or that" I'm hearing voices (yes, scary voices hehe) tell me, or rather ask "why do you want that?" "Is it the crunch? The salt? The grease? The sweet? The creamy?" Then I'm able to usually come up with something that will offer what I'm craving. For instance this morning, I'm in the store (had to work an unscheduled shift) grabbing something to take with me for the day. Yogurt, fruit - now where's the granola? I need gluten free, so of course that store didn't have any for me. Ah! nuts!.... WHAT? 9.98/lb for bulk? I won't be able to weigh out my portion at work!! All I want is crunchy to go with the creamy yogurt. Presto! an apple it is. I'll let you know later, how that stands up to the smell of the donuts brought in for the crew.
The other major change I'm feeling is that I'm constantly aware of making the proper choice for me. Routine is apparently much more influential than I realized. I find myself steering toward a fast food place or toward the junk food in the grocery, telling myself that I've done so well, I can reward myself. Very quickly, reason sets in & says (see? too many voices) "this is a choice that got you where you are today, do you want to stay there?"
I'm feeling very successful in regards to food choices, portion control, and speed of eating. Now to overcome the voices regarding exercise, or rather let the good voices overpower the negative nellies.
