- Thank you for starting the new thread
It's much easier to find everything
You are busy, busy like a bee
It's great that you are taking time to take care of yourself in the midst of everything
Kerry - To have something like that happen so close to you, that must have been so scary! I'm glad that she's stable.
As for me - ok, ladies, seriously, I am tearing my hair out
I know that I have a problem with being negative (always talking about what's going wrong, worrying and stressing too much), and I feel like I have been whining my head OFF. I am sick of hearing about it, sick of thinking about it. But right now, all that I can imagine helping me relieve this stress is beating the **** out of a punching bag, and I'm not going to be able to do that. School right now, and then work after that.
Please forgive me for unloading on you, but I don't know what else to do! I'm sitting in class not getting my homework done, ready to cry. I need to talk to someone.
This is what's going on...I know that **** happens, but we seem to have so much of it being dumped on us left and right that I am starting to wonder wtf we did to piss off karma. I mean, seriously already! First, when I went back to school, of course that stopped me from working full time, so there went my entire income while I found a PT job. Money was TIGHT. It still is, but now atleast I'm working pretty regularly at a job that pays decent.
Then, our truck wouldn't start for several days. We finally got it boosted by a neighbor. A few days later, the fuel pump went. Our credit card was already maxed out with my boyfriend's school (he couldn't get a loan, so decided to use the card as a loan of sorts so that he didn't have to take time off of his Business degree). We had NO money to get the truck fixed, so we charged the $800+ to the card, after asking for a credit increase.
This morning, my bf ran into the metal grate on a construction truck and not only dented the truck and scraped paint off of it, but also broke out the left signal light. It's going to cost $300+ to fix...the paint & dent can stay the way it is until we're ready to trade the truck in later, but the light can result in a fine from the police, so we HAVE to get it fixed right away.
At this point, I'm submitting a Change of Circumstances form to the government to reconsider the loan that they awarded me. I wanted to stay as loan free through this as possible, and the first loan just covered most of my tuition, but this is seriously scaring me. What if I got sick? What if more crap happens? We just barely paid this months' rent. We also had to go to the food bank.
This isn't all, but I'm done my novel
On top of it all, I have NOT been dealing with this. I've been bingeing, instead. I mean, not for the last going on 3 days, but off and on worse then it's EVER been before.
/end sob story. Ugh! I do feel better. Thank you so much for listening. I know that we're going to be okay, and I know that life is not about having things all going your way, it's about rolling with the punches and coming out a better person. I think I just needed to vent, and maybe get some of this out? I don't know. I really want to keep taking care of myself, and help my bf through this. I know that he is beating himself up pretty bad about this morning. Also, he has been offering to help with my part of the bills, but I don't want to lean too hard on him. He's in school, too! He already works full time.
Ok. Truly done. I hope everyone has a good Friday! (TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!