Hey there. I was just talking to my Sister about this. We both struggle with our weight, but I've made it to Lifetime once before and have every intention of getting there again.
One of the items we discussed was that the more social or active we were, the more motivated we stayed. Trouble hit when we would hibernate in the house with our comfy clothes and since no one could see us...we would eat. Getting your swimsuit on was a big deal. It showed your children that your are who you are right now, but that you aren't afraid to play with them or ashamed. These are lessons that last our children's lifetime. Being in that suit, if nothing else, has motivated you to not gain more weight. If you were cooped up in that hotel room, you may have jsut ordered room service and moved that scale in the wrong direction.
I am only 5' 2" and am 50 lbs overweight. I still get my suit on and take my Son to the pool or the lake. Yeah, I don't feel great, but I am holding my head up and making changes. You just need to take small steps. Stay on this board, attend the WW meetings, and recognize that it will take time. I applaud you
after 4 babies and you ONLY have 50 lbs to lose. I only have 1 child for goodness sakes!!!
Hang in there and keep your motivation up. We're all here for you.