Remember me? I was pretty active on 3fc last year. I had lots of success in the first half of the year then summer came and I was just as active and started being a bit more lax with my eating habits. I lost 50lbs and only gained 4 back since then, but I am back at it.
I went from meetings to etools to now back to meetings. My dad passed away suddenly in October, so I literally did whatever the f*ck I felt like for two solid months and am using the new year to snap myself back into it. Grief is a strange beast. I loved my dad a whole lot and considered him a good friend, so I am still working some things out with all that. But I just couldn't stand to sit there, with ALL THE CHRISTMAS COOKIES in my lap or getting drunk and crying with a whole bottle of wine, knowing all the hard work I had put in the months before. I don't know, it's like I caught myself actively trying
to self destruct. I just kept thinking of my dad, and me even just 4 months before and how sure I was about my future success. So. I am tracking again. I am going to meetings again. I am focusing on my body and being healthy again. I know that I am responsible for today, and that tomorrow is a new today and that is how we attain our goals: one day at a time. That is also how I am working all this crazy stuff out in my head: One day at a time.
This year is going to be better. So many things are happening in my life. I am getting married in September. I finish graduate school in May. I am moving back to Chicago. I have to get a job. I have to pack up and move my life.
So I don't know how much time I will have to be a tentative 3fc member, but this is my attempt to put myself out there and put into writing what the heck is going on with me and what I know I truly want to accomplish, grief or not. Accountability and all.
I hope everyone is having a happy and hopeful new year, and cheers to seeing success in 2014.