to slip back into old habits. are you surprised? hmmm.
there are times i'd like nothing more than to curl up with a good book and some cookies, and just escape. for a long time.
but i can't. it would be so easy to go back to weighing 500 pounds, but i was miserable.
a wise woman once told me that very overweight people tend to live in their heads, not in their bodies. and that once they started living in their bodies, they hated it, and that was the breaking point. some can't stand it and do whatever they must to lose the weight, and others go back to ignoring their physical beings.
at some point during just about every single day, i take a look around myself and realize that i'm doing stuff that was impossible at 500 pounds. i'm walking around the office, or talking and walking at the same time, or hiking or riding a bike, or shopping. just normal everyday stuff.
and then the gratitude hits. and i realize that no matter how much i want to backslide, it's just not an option.
it's not always an easy choice, though.
<sigh> i know you all understand this...