oh honey. a double edged sword, isn't it? first of all, the weight loss is fabulous - even though it's come at a price. I, too, would never have lost this weight without the surgery, and, in fact, would probably have passed away by this time without it.
work on these health issues you have - as much as it hurts to say this, it's kinda nice to have docs actually PAY ATTENTION to what's going on with you, instead of just dismissing it to your weight [and if only you'd lose weight ... blah blah blah].
doesn't make it easier, though. you've come such a long way, and learned so much about how you eat, and what, and why ... you can get through this. and you and i can do it together!!!!!