OK, this might be a long story, so please bear with me.
I am 30 with a BMI of 50. I have severe back and hip problems (not caused by weight but birth defect) which have put me in a wheelchair for 6 years of my life already. I am currently able to walk a little. I have 2 kids, aged 7 and 5 and my partner who would be supportive of WLS. I have also suffered from depression since I was 3 (yes 3 and thank goodness for Seroxat! LOL). Both of my parents have Type II diabetes and heart problems (I'm doomed!). I LOVE food!
I have been overweight since my mid-teens. I was very active and sporty until the back and hips deformities started to deteriorate, this was when the weight started to go on. I managed on a few occasions to lose weight by plain old cutting down the calories and the limited amount of exercise I could still do at the time. I am now extremely overweight (but still not at my heaviest) and desperately trying to stay out of the wheelchair (lots and lots of painkillers etc) mainly so I can still look after my kids (and ex-husband doesn't use it as an excuse to apply for custody).
I can do some exercises sitting down which are great for toning but not for burning the calories off. I have tried dieting again and again and become disheartened as it just doesn't seem to work and lose what will-power I have and comfort eat. I've tried Atkins, Calorie Counting, Acai Berries, Colon Cleanse, Orlistat... the list goes on, nothing has worked.
Well my GP suggested that due to my circumstances, she would be willing to put me forward for WLS and there is an outstanding chance I would be accepted right away. (I live in the UK, so it would be on the NHS and I wouldn't have to pay for it).
Here's the problem, if you are still with me lol:
I am terrified of surgery. Its the only thing putting me off. I had both my kids by cesaerian section - epidural, curtain up, didn't see a thing. I can't even watch operations on TV. I used to watch ER with blinkers on!
How much do you see? What happens if something goes wrong? Are you knocked out for this?
Pain isn't an issue, I am used to it, its just the surgery itself. What advice can any of you give me? If you haven't fallen asleep during reading my post! Apologies about the length!