Originally Posted by worthylady
Well this input has been most helpful. I thought after surgery that the desire for certain types of food would go away because I know that I can't eat. That is not the case at all. I snuck in fried cod fish yesterday, I threw up and could not sleep
. So today I ended up eating blackened fish and still trying to fit my vegetables in. This is still difficult
It is good to see it wont all be roses and daffodils after surgery, especially about food, As it is now I have had my gall bladder removed and too much fats in my food make me very ill and I tend to vomit.
I am also a recovering recurrent bulimic and it comes and goes and it comes out most in times of stress (like lately) and the only way to fight it is to eat very small amounts of foods that abosolutly dont upset my stomach at all because when I am stressed (and usually WANT to eat) I will get ill and throw up if I do it too much, a real catch 22.
on the other hand I know what people mean about realizing how we have dealt with life through food, when I am stressed there are two responses... starvation or binge (if I am stressed to the point of not eating it is BAD)
We have always celebrated with food in my family, heck we have celebrated having an extra $10 when things were hard as a kid. I love eating out at places, I just plain like going out and talking with people while we eat and drink, it is a big part of my social life. I dont drink much booze but on occasions like this new years I find myself wanting to "tie one on" and all. Even though I know I dont have to drink to be happy I like the idea that I CAN drink and i know that will change with WLS and all.
I would love to not think of food all the time and i hope it will happen, but now I find myself sometimes thinking "this is the last christmas I can go crazy and make big trays of goodies for people" or "this is the last new years eve I will have to really party hard."
I made tons of food for the party and as I do it i wonder will I still be doing stuff like that after WLS, or will I just avoid parties?
I have more questions then brain power to deal with them sometimes....LOL or so it feels.