I don't know, we weren't that close the last few years (her choice) but my mother was a important part of Christmas for me my entire life. I've heard recently that the first Holiday Season after someone passes is the worst and man am I feeling it.
I have been very Bah Humbug this year, that sooooo not like me! I love christams, even though I always did too much for my tired old body.
My daughter convinced me just day before yesterday to put up the tree...it was hard because Mom had hand crocheted two of the orniments and I cried.
It has been hard to not eat and eat through this...instead I went out dancing with friends. Mama loved to dance. I miss her...but I don't miss the "jolly", fat and tired me that had to push myself to do anything that I was for my adult life. So I dance instead of eat holiday cookies...and miss my mom.
Many of us lost family members this year...may we all remember them this Holiday season and dance.