O.k.,
I need to get this started NOW!!! I have a huge history of losing and gaining---we are talking 35+ years . I just weighed myself a week or so ago and am at an all-time high of 239.5--man it hurts to think about that number. (I am 5'91/2" tall.) I hope I have not gone up any since then. I have gained a lot twice in my life due to medication I have to take. I gained 65 pounds once and then this last gain is 65+ pounds. I try every day to do something. I feel like I kind of know what to do, but then I get freaked out and start bouncing around from idea to idea until I don't know what to do . Any idea I come up with , I get scared it won't work, I can't really do it, the medication will not let me lose,,etc. And I get kind of down and scared when I try to start something. Am I crazy??? Has anyone else had the same experience and been successful at finding a way to succeed?
Oh, yeah, and now I have high cholesterol and triglycerides and just had to start taking something for my blood pressure. I feel like such a failure . And I have tried lots of things---WW, calorie counting, just eating less....I need to start NOW. But how? I am so tired of this. I read tons of success stories and think surely I can do it, too. But I don't know if I really can. And I know I need to find my own way, but how? Thank you so much for listening. I just don't know what to do anymore.
Crying and praying,