Hi there,
Hey I enjoyed the way you wrote that. Interesting!
Maybe you feel the mountain is so high and hard to achieve. It means so many things, doesn't it? Once you get there (if you get there, your inner voice says, always there to knock you back a peg), what then?
This much is certain. If you give up, you'll have to start again. You'll feel bad. Slip ups are what life is about. Try try try. You have seen success so far, so knowing it is POSSIBLE is the best part. Keep reminding yourself that the fact that it is POSSIBLE makes the rest just a decision. Thank goodness the ability is there at all, right? Now that you have proven to yourself that you CAN do it, then it's just a matter of doing (not as easily done as said, of course).
I try to break things up into fragments when I find them large. Do what you know first. What do you KNOW works, work with that first. Break up your chunks of weight loss into blocks, I bet that will help.
For sure, seeing everyone else here with their own struggles, some of them we can all relate to, helps!!! We are all here together for the same goal.
I am glad that you are here and everyone here is helping you get through these bad times that we'll all experience.