I discovered today that a member of 3FC who inspired me to begin moving my behind has not posted in more than 6 weeks. She wasn't a "buddy" of mine.. but just someone who posted often.. and whose posts I read often. I just searched for her last post and was sad to discover it was a post in response to someone she thought was giving her a hard time in a debate. After this post ... nothing....
This missing 3FC member seemed to be having a hard time getting her plan together.. yet she showed so much progress in changing her mind set. Now she is gone... Was it because of the thread she posted on? Was it something else?
There is no way for me to contact her.. I want to reach out and find out how she is doing.. is she gone with hard feelings? Did she find some support elsewhere? Is she just busy? There is no way for me to know.
I searched to see if anyone was looking for her.. I found nothing.. that doesn't mean no one noticed she disappeared.. her message box could be almost full of people reaching out...
It is so sad..
I think of her slipping backwards
and hope it is not true
wondering if she is coming back
It also has me wondering if my buddy Casey is gone...
She hasn't posted in a couple of weeks.. but she is a busy person
What if like this other poster she just disappears...
I'm really sad tonight thinking about it ...
I went from a nearly perfect day to this sadness..
It makes me realize that this cyber support is all up to us.
Unlike a support system of friends who would break down a door to find out how we are if we disappear.. cyberfriends are helpless to know and helpless to even find out.
I haven't been here long enough to make true connections with anyone. So I wonder.. if I disappear.. would anyone miss me? Of course I can't help to have these thoughts.
This member who has been gone for 6 weeks... she joined only a month before me.. Was she here long enough to make a friend before she disappeared only 3 months after becoming a member?
Sorry to be so down.. but I find this incredibly sad.
Again.. this journey.. this support is what we make it.
Make it strong!