anyways. thing is. i have a problem - and it's not 100% to blame ON that "TOM" (time of month) either...which of course i WANT to blame it on - but i know it's not JUST that "tom" when i do this.
my biggest issue is chocolate. i seriously honest to god think i'm addicted. and please, don't laugh, as i'm not exaggerating or joking. I feel like I have to have chocolate at LEAST once if not twice (or 5) times a day.
it is worse, though - especially around that "tom" though. ie - today i decided to up and go to dairy queen after dinner. i went and when i got there i thought, "i'll be 'good' and just get a small treat like a dilly bar - and instead i got a BUSTER bar...and when i got it - it had the nutritional info on it - 500 calories with 28 g fat & 15 g saturated fat. i was appalled...but i ate it anyways - and while, yes - it tasted good - it was SOOOO not worth it - but the fact is, i ate it anyways.
and this morning - on one of my breaks at work, i HAD to have a brownie - which they were out of - so I had a piece of cake instead. yes - the cafe at my work serves cake during both breakfast & lunch.
and that of course isn't to mention the piece of 3 muskateers bar a friend gave me or the hershey's chocolate stick (only 60 calories...lol) i had after work.
and i KNOW it wasn't worth it - and yes, i went off my plan today so bad it's not even funny. i want SO bad to get back into the swing of things. i USED to be that "annoying health freak" amongst my friends - turning down "bad" foods andd bringing only GOOD healthy foods to work...and it seems like i go from one extreme to the other like a yo-yo all the time. now i made my weight goal, dropping 60 pounds 2 years ago. since then, i've ONLY gained back 15 of those pounds...but i KNOW that if i keep this up it will all be back again which i do NOT want...
and when i DO go out of my way to get that chocolate (such as having to drive TO dairy queen...) i tell myself, "you don't need it - you won't be very happy after you eat it - it WON'T be worth it..."
yet here i am 10 minutes later after eating that buster bar. :-(
anyone else do this and if you do - how have you gotten yourself to stop?
anyone have any advice?????