Hi everyone. Usually I post my "imaginary" problems that I face with dieting, since really I have no problems refraining myself from unhealthy food. At 23, I finally succeeded at losing weight after 9 years of trying. I guess it is because I really want it, and I do not want to live my 20's just like I lived through my teens: A morbidly overweight boy. This has motivated me to keep on doing what I'm doing. However, I have found that my weight loss journey has been very draining mentally. After a 95 pound steady weight loss, I try to find excuses to stop and maybe go back to my old eating habits. I feel that right now I'm conciously talking myself out. My tiny brain has now come up with a new way to stop me in my tracks. Okay, I can control what I think of course, but I guess I need some support for reassurance that I may be going through something normal.
I never weigh myself more than once a month. Seeing that the scale decreases 8 little notches in one month is very encouraging. But lately, for the fact that now that the holidays have passed and everything has calmed down, I have more time on my hands to think things. I weighed myself on January 1st, only to go back to reweighing myself on the 3rd. Seeing that there was no results in 3 days spawned this idea that I may be nearing a plateau. I should know better that I have never seen results in 3 days. Nevertheless, lately I have focused on this fear of my body no longer wanting to lose. I have stuck to the same eating plan ( a good breakfast, slim fast for lunch, fruits as snacks, and a bowl of special K for dinner) and exercise routine (lots of cardio, not so much use of weights) for months, seeing results everytime. Now I fear that this same reason allows for my body to have become accustomed to that regime and no longer wants to lose. I also fear changing the way I have done things. My eating plan has been very easy to follow and I doubt I can stick to another. The same thing I have not faced the plateau and will not be sure I have hit one until my weigh-in on the first of the month. Meanwhile, I feel that I may be slipping a little and I don't want this to happen and blow up again to 250 lbs.
I guess also it may be the fact that I have been going out and experiencing things I had not been through when I was obese. It all seems surreal. Losing so much weight is surreal; I never thought I was going to actually achieve something so difficult.
All in all, should I stick to my plan despite of assumming I will no longer see results? I know that as long as I cut back on my calories I will see results, but sometimes I think that will no longer work. I suppose I'm just being too harsh on myself for the fact that I have been telling myself that I must weigh this much by such and such date. Sorry folks, it's just an unfounded fear.