Hi, I posted this introduction on the Eating disorders support board too, but wanted to try here as well, I hope that's OK.
I wasn't sure where to start and I hope I'm on the right part of the board (it's so huge!) If I'm in the wrong place, maybe one of you could help me find the right place to introduce myself?
Here goes, I'm a 27 yr. old SAHM of two beautiful kids DS7 and DD3, married for 8.5 yrs together with hubby for 10.5. Married at 18.
I guess I have been overweight for most of my life, since age 6 or 7.
Today I am 225 and extremely unhappy about it.
Around two years ago, I lost 40 pounds and was very proud of myself, but there's always a reason to quit....and then the weight came back.
The reason that time was: I'd lost the 40 pounds with food changes alone, I knew it was time to add in exercise, so I started working out. Now, I know that when someone starts working out, they will tend to gain a small amount of weight because they are building muscle. BUT, in my twisted mind...even though I knew better..I let the gain defeat me and gave up.
Story of my life.
So now, that 40lbs. is almost all back and I'm just so damned tired of this cycle. I'm tired of being a quitter. I'm tired of my intelligent mind crying out for me to stop....while my body walks to the kitchen to get some chips.
I'm beginning to believe that I have a true eating disorder...although I've told myself all my life that I'm not an emotional eater.
I just looked over the O.A. checklist and answered yes to nearly all the questions.
So, I'm ready to begin again...but I need support, and help from others.
I hope you'll welcome me, and help me to get my butt in gear!