Just want to second whats already been said and say WELCOME!!!
I've got a similar amount to lose and have lost it before and put it on again, and tried this diet and tried that diet and lost a bit and put it on etc etc. I know how you feel, I look at pictures of myself before I was fat or from when I lost weight the first time and could just
myself for putting weight on.
On my 33rd birthday this year (in August) I started again and I'm not doing any particular diet just eating healthily,reducing portion sizes, drinking lots of water and taking some exercise. I've gone past quick fix efforts and I just know I don't want to be fat all my life so I'm going to stick at this and make it my lifestyle. I still have treats but they are not my staple diet like they used to be!!!
As you move around on here you'll see loads of people doing different diets/eatingplans etc and I think you just need to find out what is best for you. What is excellent about 3FC is that people are so encouraging and supportive. I love reading about people who have lost incredible amounts of weight and are keeping it off.
You are not disgusting, you're brave and you are taking matters in your own hands
which is an amazing first step - you can do this!!!!!
We've all been where you are. I even hate catching my reflection in shop windows but I just keep telling myself that this is temporary, I'm addressing it, it's going to take time but I'll get there.
If I can help you I will, I hang out mostly at the 100 club with some amazingly kind and encouraging people who would love to see you there. (I'm sure you'll be welcome anywhere!!)
Love from Annie