My Powerless Self
Hey there!
I'm so angry with myself!I'm so stupid! I had lost 7 pounds a couple of months ago and now I gained it all back.I'm so grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I'm cheating myself. I eat, and eat and eat. Even if I don't want to eat it's like I'm bringing myself down, like if I deserved to be unhappy, ugly and fat.I'm staying all day at home feeling sorry for myself. I hide it from my parents as I'm on holiday now and I'm spent it in my hometown. I hate me so!I canīt handle me....It's so sad, so helpless....I eat and I'm unhappy, I'm unhappy and eat and so on...I don't have will to change things.Deep inside I'm so blue with all of this, I'm so sick of being fat, of being larger than my friends...I'm letting fat to take control of my life and of my desires, I'm becoming a bitter person...I can't stand in front of a mirror, it makes me too sad. Don't know what to do...I shouldn't even be here annoying all of you that are making such an effort to change your lifes..sorry...
Kisses
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