MrsK, I'm so sorry that you're feeling such pain about your weight. It's true, you do have a good chunk of weight to lose. So do I. I weigh about 225 currently, and though I've been happily hanging around 3FC for a while now, I haven't lost any weight.
I hate thinking about how much weight I have to lose. I think you should talk to Amarantha, who has lost about 100 pounds so far on her journey. I really think she could talk to you about discouragement and immobility much better than I.
We all go through these periods of "Who Cares?" and "I'm never going to beat this". I know you're aware of this very universal fact. I'm glad you're posting about feeling this way - I tend to stay away from my friends here when I feel this way, and that's dumb. I mean, what are we here for? We'll be here for you, and you'll find a way to get healthier. I mean it! You have all the resources inside you to change yourself, and if you can't do it alone, come here and vent all you want!
Here's my thing: I just read (in desperation not unlike your own) an O Magazine article about women who hate to exercise just for exercise's sake, but love getting their exercise in in sports or whatever. Soccer's my big love - I played it (badly) in college five years ago and want to take it up again. So, I'm running (only for like a minute at a time!) and walking so I can run forever eventually on the field, and my first league practice is Saturday. I'm expecting discomfort and humiliation for a while since I can't keep up, but I'm determined to get good at it. Maybe it isn't a sport, but try thinking about something you could do to get moving - anything! Dancing (maybe in private) lessons, swimming, softball, tai chi (you can be ANY size to do that!). It's gonna be hard for a while - I'll get on here later and whine about soccer, I'm sure!
I'll be around...
HEY, Amarantha, I KNEW you couldn't resist this thread! I knew I'd see you here!
MrsK, stick around - we'll find the answers together!