I really agree with Wannabeskinny. I have really struggled with binge eating, on and off, for the last 4 years. For a long time I searched for psychological reasons for why I did this. For a while I thought it was what Riestrella described, that I liked to treat myself with food, because I do. But anyone who has truly binged can tell you that it's no treat to eat until your stomach hurts, until you have the shakes, not even tasting the food, hating, despising yourself the minute you're done -- heck, before you're even done, while the crumbs are still in your teeth. And then doing it again the next day. And the next.
Over time I've come to believe that it's a psychological and physiological combo, the mind and body's reaction to deprivation and insufficient calories (and to your body, any amount that makes you lose weight is by definition insufficient).
This is not to say that everyone who loses weight is subject to binge eating (obviously!). There is something that makes some of us more susceptible than others (for example, I am, overall, not a big fan of being deprived. I'm sure a psychologist could help me sort through that).
Anyway, I say all this because I spent a lot of time berating myself ("what is wrong with me!?!?! Why do I do this to myself!?!?!") assuming it was personal weakness, lack of willpower, or a really messed-up head, whereas now I think there is a lot going on in our bodies to influence our brains to make these poor decisions.
Candid, I hope you are feeling a bit better. Hugs to you and best of luck moving forward.
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