I haven't been on here for a long time and for a good reason. I used to be on here all the time but I was a chronic dieter and I was yo-yo dieting a lot. It was a dark time in my life. I stopped dieting last year and have become a lot happier and much more happy with who I am. I learned that I am not only as good as my body... there's more to it than that.
I eat healthy. I eat pretty much 80-90% real foods. However I eat a lot of sugar-based foods still and in terms of meals. I still go for the convenience, so I'll grab paleo cereal and almond butter with kefir and honey or something. I do like to eat veggies and fruit too but I have been eating a lot more than I should in terms of calories because I am eating a lot of fats. I try to eat mostly grain-free (a lot of paleo) but I do eat dairy once in a while but not often (no yogurt at all because I'm a bit lactose intolerant)
So here's my dilemma. Although I have gained happiness and confidence. I have also gained weight and I am at my highest now. A part of me feels guilty because I let myself go but at part of me doesn't care. And that's where the dilemma comes in.
I know I am overweight. I no longer fit in most of my clothes and I am so tired of it, I also know summer is coming and that's not going to be fun at all if I don't feel comfortable wearing my tank tops... or that I will have to buy NEW ONES. Ugh.
I, however, have lost the desire to lose weight. A small part of me says "yes you should lose weight" but I am eating real foods (although overeating and emotionally eating a lot because I am a new entrepreneur and spend a LOT of time working). I also haven't worked out in 1.5 month - just can't get the motivation to do it.
So what do you suggest? How can I get that spark to want to get back in shape? I feel defeated because I don't even fully want to commit because I know it will be hard. Any tips for me? Any books you've read to help get your butt in gear (without the dieting or obsessive/chronic mentality, because I am SO not for counting calories/dieting EVER again. I just want to learn to eat when I'm hungry again (intuitive eating, which I did for a while but then stress happened..)
So I can, again, show the true me. I want to be curvy fit. Happy and confident. So I can wear the clothes I already have and not have to buy NEW ones yet again! To be healthy, active, and vibrant. Every day.