I am so very, very happy to see your name, Melissa. Welcome back. You were missed.
I've had a very rough winter too and am trying to admit to myself I've regained half of what I had lost. There's definitely a fall from grace feeling, isn't there? I was SO confident I had hit my stride and had finally learned enough behaviors that "never again" would I see above X - and I remember that feeling of hubris very clearly still, while I stare at the scale, mystified. I've planned to do a post-mortem today of the last six months as a way of kicking off a renewed approach -- if I don't spend some time mulling over the specifics of how I slowly went astray, and contemplating future alternatives, I know I'll do it again.
Many hugs sent your way. Just glad you're back.