Originally Posted by berryblondeboys
I've never maintained a low weight in my entire life - ever. And I'm 44 years old.
, I'm 38 years old and am currently 206 pounds, which is the absolute lowest weight I've ever been since junior high
. I spent the majority of my adult life believing I'd never be able to stay under 250 for any amount of time (I was already 250 by the time I was 14 years old). I'm not saying it's easy and I'm not saying I have everything figured out yet, but for the first time in my life I see a light at the end of the tunnel, a chance to maybe reach my goal of no longer being overweight. I'm not even sure I can wrap my head around the idea of maintenance yet, but I don't exactly want to live in fear of it either when it's still so far off.
While I'd spent most of my life being at least 100 pounds overweight, I gained an additional 100 pounds on top of that in just one year when I was in my late 20's. I spent 8 years struggling to get that off, only to gain back a huge chunk just a couple of years ago. After my miscarriage I made the decision that I needed to change before I found myself 200 pounds overweight again; I think if I allowed myself to fear reaching my goal, I'd still be 360 pounds.
- I've always been a non-confrontational person, but that's been changing lately. I've had severe anxieties all of my life and at times find it physically impossible to speak what's really on my mind when annoyed/upset/angered without breaking down into tears. I started on meds a few months ago to treat my postpartum depression, which inadvertently helped my anxieties. I'm still learning where to draw the line with what I have to say because my normal filter has been removed, and even the hubby is shocked at how candid I've been lately.
Something tells me that I'll be calling this lady out on several things and I'm hoping it doesn't turn into a heated argument. I've been leaning on the idea of "tough love" lately so we'll see what happens?