This^ Why do I feel like this? I joke and say that I'm just not a "spa kind of girl," but the truth is I don't feel comfortable with (or maybe worthy of) the special treatment - even if I'm paying for it! I only dream of what a massage would feel like. And, other women I know revel in these kinds of treatments - to me, it's like they're from another planet!

RadioJane I just want to say that you seem like the most thoughtful person. Since I've been in the forum, I've enjoyed your posts. You come across as intelligent, conscientious, and very level-headed. I can relate to a lot of what you shared in the OP, and just putting those thoughts "out there" will help you sort things out.

Thank you very much Aw shucks!