After a bit of quiet lurking, I've decided to sign up for a bit of support. I'm 21 years old, 5ft 6 and live in Lebanon. Women here are very vain. They want to be gorgeous. I am ok with my average looks. Others, however, are not and make sure I hear it from them. I try not to care, but it does start to get to you a bit. God forbid you gain a little weight in this country. Every woman will let you know! Except that's the problem...I gained weight.
I'm not looking to get ultra-skinny or muscular. I just want to lose 10-15 lbs and feel good in my clothes again. See, I know I had gained weight but I didn't know how much. I had a rough few months and I ate and ate and ate.
A month ago I weighed myself and then wham! I became depressed (I suffer from anxiety & depression & have been for 4 years. I am not on any medication.)
I was always 145-148lbs and very content there. People always used to tell me I needed to lose 10lbs then but I have a 40 inch *** and wear a 36C bra...and I felt sexy! I am curvy and genuinely LOVE curvy, thick ladies.
However now, I am 158 and I keep beating myself up about it. Many of my friends are saying its not a big deal but I feel myself becoming obsessed and I just want YOU ALL to put me in my place and tell me to relax and how to lose it the healthy way. I dobt want thus to develop into something serious when 10lbs shouldn't be such a big deal..
With that being said I have cut down on my calories and made a lot of big swaps. I havent had any junk food, including fried food. I eat a lot more fruits now. I've cut down on my bread intake by 2/3 (I allow myself 2 small pita breads a week). I drink about 5 glasses of water a day plus two cups of green tea. On March 6, it'd be exactly a month since I started and I am petrified of weighing myself. I feel thinner and my size 7 jeans fit me again but at the same time I still feel fat.
I'm scared of going on the scale and seeing "155lbs" after a month of dieting.
I also should say that I don't really exercise, other than house chores (it gets vigorous at times!) and I don't really go out...will me not exercising throw all.my changes out the window?
Anyway, I basically just want a hug! I've read so many stories here and I wish I was as strong and empowered as you all. Thank you for reading.