I have been with my fiancee for 9 and a half years and he and I are finally getting married in late May. Not only is the planning as stressful as I'd heard about, I always envisioned myself losing about 25-30 lb for the wedding. I have had a few brief successes but somehow I haven't stuck with it. I want it so badly, I do not know why it is so hard for me. I feel so bad for myself, when it is all my fault. I just don't want to cry the day before my wedding feeling like a failure (and dreading my photos on such a happy day)
This week I have been doing better, not perfect, but definitely noticing I am saying no more often. Maybe it is subconsciously settling in. I know these last 90 days is the time I could use to lose at least 20 lb and I know I would be so ecstatic approaching the day knowing I did work hard to meet a goal.
I don't know why I am posting this, maybe personal empowerment. Or venting. I know I can do this, I wish I knew why I have been sabotaging my chances lately.
I picked my dress and it will be ready to try on for the first time in about a month. Then I think I will have to ask for alterations and have one more fitting a few weeks before the wedding where I make my final decisions. I would love to go down two sizes but one would be ok
I want to be proud of myself.