This is a WONDERFUL forum! I have been enjoying reading old posts. I am finding them helpful and motivational. I have found that everyone here is very friendly and supportive. It's nice to find others that are going through similar struggles.
I am so sorry that things did not work out with your relationship. Down the road you will see that it is their loss and that you are much better off without them.
You deserve to better yourself. You deserve to get yourself healthier. It's time to be selfish and take care of you. I have a very hard time doing things for me. I realized that I was only getting older (42) and my weight most likely was only going to keep going up. It's okay to be selfish sometimes.
You CAN do this!! Go kick butt!!