I am sending you
. I so know how you feel.
I did not lose near the weight you did. My original loss was 60lbs and I so wanted to lose 10 more. For the past year and a half I have struggled to maintain my weight, let alone lose any more.
Here I am, almost 20lbs heavier. Due to issues with my hips, I can no longer do hardcore exercising. No running, no more squats and lunges or ZUMBA.
I have beat myself up every day for allowing myself to regain this weight. I so know the inner fears are struggles you are going through.
I have been back in serious mode for the past 5 days. I have done the exercises I am allowed and kept my food on target. I am working real hard at not allowing my negative voice to derail me because if I do, I will end up back where I was.
I have no great words of wisdom just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I too know this is going to be a life long journey and it is hard. Maintaining is as hard as losing, maybe even harder. I just hoping my fear of gaining it all back will be enough for me to keep trying.
Hang in there sweetie. I am cheering for you.