One of my motivators kinda happened today. I have two boys who are 4 and 9 years old and I have often felt like I didn't want them to be embarrassed by me or teased bc of my weight. I'm sure it has happened bc kids just are that way.
But today for the first time my little one told me that a girl in another class said that I was fat. He said he told her I wasn't and my older one yelled "that's RUDE to say that!" Instead of being heartbroken, which I probably would have been 50 pounds ago, I just thought, eh, they're kids and it doesn't really mean anything. I'm still one of the biggest moms at the school w a BMI of 29, but I am really feeling pretty darned normal, so pffffft... C'est la vie! And I thought it was kinda sweet how defensive my kids were about it.
As far as health stuff, I am just excited that I'm getting closer and closer to a weight that'll make it less likely that my doctors will discriminate against me. I know it sounds like a strange goal, but I kinda think that having a doctor take you seriously and think you're worth helping is probably more protective that good blood pressure or whatever.
A while back I fell off the wagon for a couple of days and felt like I was being controlled by my eating the way a drug addict's life is controlled by their habit. At one point I made a detour to swing by Carl's Jr. even though I knew it was gonna make me late to meet my kid. And that's just how I am when I'm eating carbs. I feel much more sane and in control when I'm not.
type I diabetic and mama to ds1 (9/14/03) and ds2 (2/11/09)
sometimes vlc, sometimes pure carnivore, always once-a-day feeding