I had this stupid idea of trying on bathing suit tops today when I went to the mall. I will call it temporary insanity as that's all I can come up with.
I bought a pair of swim shorts the other day as I have so much hanging thigh skin that I wanted something longer than a regular bathing suit bottom. (The skin is disgusting, I can't even describe it.)
So I went looking for a top to match (the shorts are black so the possibilities are endless). I learned real quick that I need a built-in bra and it's more because I lost so much of my boobs as opposed to having too much up there! (And I'm ok with that, my inflated chest from gaining weight made me look even bigger than I was, I think. Now I'm flat compared to what I was before and I love it.)
I think I tried on 40 bathing suit tops between Macys, Old Navy, Sears and JCPenney. I came home with ZERO. (The 2 at Macys and 1 Lands End that I considered almost acceptable were over $50 each ON SALE! I'm not THAT insane...)
All of the bathing suit tops I tried on were sleeveless.
My cottage cheese arms near my armpits are gross!! When my arms & thighs were bigger, they were solid fat!! Now they are like shriveled balloons.
At least I could find a semi-solution for the thighs (plus they are hidden in the water) but my arms can't be hidden. There will be no beachball volleyball in the pool this year, batwings could be classified as assault with a dangerous weapon!
I think I just have to invest in a wetsuit and pretend I'm a diver every time I go in our pool. I never worried about any of this before when I was large, I just put on my large suit and jumped in.
I did try on my old bathing suits again today to see if I could make anything work for now. I could, if I tie them around me twice...
Back to the drawing board I guess...