In March I reached my first goal, I lost 20lbs. I was thrilled. It took me about 7 months to do it. During Christmas and winter which is always tough for me. Extra proud for those reasons.
But I haven't lost anymore since. I keep gaining and losing the same 3-5lbs. I stopped logging my food on MFP for almost a month. I knew my cals enough to know if I was on track, and I kept up with my exercise, but I was just burnt out from weight loss. Which frustrated me cause I thought I had gotten to the point where it was becoming a habit, and a lifestyle.
I DO NOT want to gain back my 20lbs. But I can see myself going that way. Last time I lost weight I lost 20lbs, and then I gained back 40lbs.
I want to lose 100lbs in total, but I can't think of that right now. So, I keep telling myself, just lose 20 more, get to onederland, then go from there.
But I feel like this first 20 was SO HARD. I feel exhausted. I can't seem to get back on track. I know it felt good. I know it's good for my heart. I love how my body is changing. I love wearing smaller sizes.
I started back on MFP. Trying to up the exercise. But it's not clicking.
I want to get back on track to lose that 20. I just don't know where to start. Which feels ridiculous cause I felt like I finally GOT IT and I was set! Now I feel lost again.