After the donut fiasco I am feeling much better. I'm been eating under my calorie goal almost every day, except a few days in a row I was a bit over by about 60 calories. Not too bad, if I do say so myself.
Lately my goal has been to stay at, or around, calories and focus on making that a habit.
It's quickly becoming habit. Even after a slip-up I get right back on track. I'm not worrying about macro-nutrients or exercise just yet. Though exercise has been on my mind.
In a few weeks I am going to get fitted running shoes and start a C25K. I like running. I can't run for long but I feel great after a 30 min walk/run. It's nice, pushing myself to run the full 30 seconds.
I have accepted it's going to take a long time to even reach Onederland, but the thing is, this is the way to go. Slowly. I can't maintain drastic changes long enough to build a habit. I also have a binging problem. The slower I ease into new changes the better, the less I binge.
I'm not worried about the food right now. I'm worried about logging what I eat and stopping when I know I should. I don't care if I have cake for dinner, as long as it's in calories and I stop after that. Eventually healthier food will be more important but I'm just starting this long, long journey.
In the past I would've beat myself up for not eating enough veggies, or for eating too much pasta, or for having cake when I could've skipped it. That's not how it works though. I'm human. I'm a big girl with a lot of weight to lose, a lot of time to lose it and a lot of habits to build.
I feel like I've learned so much just from the wonderful people here on 3FC. Thank you everyone!
Who else is feeling great?