Had one of those dreams last night
Had one of those dreams where you have lost control of eating. I haven't had a dream like that since like FOREVER. I don't even remember.
It started, I think, because yesterday I lost my battle with avoiding cookies. Well, I have avoided the cookies, but sampled way tooooo much of the cookie dough. It's ridiculous how I can't make cookies without caving!
Then, just as we were going to bed, I was talking with my son about what he wanted for his birthday. What meal, what dessert, etc. Well, in my dream, of course, things got all twisted, I made a batch (a spare?) and I snarfed the whole pan of it down in one go - a whole 9x13 pan of this very rich European treat. After eating it, and hiding it (and I don't HIDE food either), I was calculating in my head what kind of damage that was and realized it was easily a full pound of crap. But it was soooo good and I enjoyed it so much.
I have to admit, I was so happy when I woke up this morning to realize that the cookie damage I had done last night was NOT an equivalent to a whole pan of that dessert and that the dessert incident was just a dream.
But, obviously, I am feeling anxious about food and my lack of self-control with sweets. I reallllllly don't like that feeling of "I have no control". Happens to correspond to getting too little sleep these past few nights as I can see on my bodymedia Fit gizmo.