Hi all,
First time poster. It is wonderful to see a site like this where people can give and get support, I find that an outlet to vent these days can be hard to come by! To make my story brief, I was an athlete my how life and fortunate enough to earn a scholarship to the division 1 level. It was fantastic, I could eat anything I wanted, as much as I wanted and if anything had trouble keeping the weight on! I hung my sport up 18 months ago and have gone from a lean and mean 185 lbs to 243. I am finding it so hard to motivate myself to diet or exercise, perhaps because my whole life I 'had' to do it. Regardless, I can hardly stand the sight of myself anymore and I know my former teammates are gossiping, "Hey, did you see how much weight he gained?!". It is rather depressing. Anyways, when I used to work out I left the gym feeling invigorated, a sense of accomplishment, proud of what I had done and ready to tackle the day. Now when I leave the gym I just feel disgusting and depressed. It's a horrible feeling, especially knowing that the workout I just did realistically did not even put a dent in my weight loss goal. I was wondering if anyone else had these types of emotions/feelings and what they did to overcome them. For probably the 10th time in a year and a half I have 'kick started' my weight loss regime, I really do not want to have to start it an 11th. Thank you for any and all help!