yes. That's me.
I've posted before about my struggles. Here they are:
-i work in a delicious bakery. Poor choice of jobs....
-I love everything in that bakery.
-my wedding is in less than 2 months now. Stress is creeping on me.
-I like my shape now. But i'm not completley happy with it.
Here's my fear. I will be too busy and stressed out, from the wedding, and moving into my apartment, to maintain my diet goals. --(I'm going to try to do the Jillian Michaels 30 day shred while eating 1200 to 1500 cals). All my life i've dreamed of some big event, like prom, my next birthday, whatever, where i was the shape/size i wanted to be. The size i've never been in my entire life. I'm scared that i won't get that change in time. I won't feel perfectly beautiful like i want to. Even on the most important day of my life.
So the question is..do i let this fear get to me? Do i use this fear as an excuse to work out like mad? Is that stress good?
I've never wanted something so bad...and i've made amazing headway the past year and a half. I'm so close to my goal...if i look in the mirror and hold in my stomach just a little..and turn this way a little..bam. I'm thin. fit. Only 20 or so pounds away.
i know i can do it. because i've done it before. But I feel like, when the day to day happenings, happen, i forget that i'm supposed to be "on a diet". and i'll screw up.
Sincerely, the lifelong caterpillar.
P.S. Here is me, in my wedding gown when i tried it on the other day. Getting it hemmed. Forgive the vacant expression lol...
I can't wait to see me all dolled up with hair extensions..lol