I am still feeling so upset with myself for losing control during my vacation. I am convinced that I have put on at least 20 pounds. When I look at myself in the mirror, it looks like I am completely bloated and back to my starting weight. Mentally I know that I haven't gained back 100 pounds in wo weeks, but I feel so depressed like I have ruined everything and have totally undone my hard work. All I can think about is how big I have gotten again.
But the really irrational part is my reaction to my failure: I am constantly thinking about food, and just wanting to overeat some more. I have the attitude of "let's just eat what we want this week, and I will go back to my plan on Monday". What is wrong with me? My reaction to overeating is to continue to the downward spiral
I am repeating those same self-destructive thoughts that I have had every time I stumble. I haven't acted on them, because I have learned that if I'm patient I will eventually see the results, but I am just tired of this whole weight loss thing and all of the negative feelings I have right now.
I just hope I can continue to fight through this mental block and start feeling happier again. I need some mental strength right now...