first of all huuge hugs
i know how you feel, as do most of us on here, about the numbers, the scales, the obsession....
i too am a bit obsessed with the scale, i weigh myself twice a day, every morning after iv had a wee, baisically naked lol, and again in a small nighty after my bedtime wee. ive done it tonight and iv got miffed off cause im 0.2 of a lb heavier tonight than last night.
tey not to read too much into it as diss heartening as you feel at the time. if you eat less, more healthy and excersise the weight WILL come off. slowly but surely, month by month, lb by lb the weight will dissapear...i promise.
the slower it comes off the less likely you are to put it back on again. i aim for 1 lb a week.
i come on here and nose through posts about people feeling the same way or having a bad day after a relapse to make me feel normal so to speak