I don't really know or care. In fact I work very hard at making sure that I don't care, because in the past I would always get hung up on and onbsessive about my goal, whatever it was. I'd get really upset and frustrated when I felt like my goal wasn't acheivable. And when I felt that my goal wasn't acheivable I would usually give up because I felt the situation was hopeless.
Now I realize that the goal is the least important aspect of my journey. My goal doesn't even have to be "set" I can decide when I reach it - and I can change my mind (up or down) at any time. If I decide tomorrow that I'm sick of losing weight, I can decide that 289 lbs IS my goal. And maybe that will last a week or three years and when I'm ready to lose more, I can work at losing more.
In that sense, I don't have a goal, I have two hundred of them, because every pound might be my last. And when I think "I can't lose anymore, I'll never reach goal," I tell myself "so what? Even if I never reach my ultimate destination, I want to always be facing - and ideally moving - in the right direction. If I take a break, I need to be standing still, not moving backwards."
And if I meet my goal of 150 lbs (currently my hope) and I decide I want to lose more - I'll work to lose more.... and if I decide that 150 is too difficult to maintain and live the kind of lifestyle I want to live, then I'll decide what weight is manageable and I'll let myself gain until I reach that weight.
I GET to decide and I get to change my mind - once, twice, or ten thousand times - I'm just going to make sure that it's my conscious choice, and not what I end up with because I stopped making conscious choices and let my autopilot take over.
Giving up autopilot is the only decision I have to stick with.
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