I'm having such a hard time, about a year ago I moved to another state, and I got myself up back to almost 210 with that! Then I told myself time to get it in gear and got down to 195.
THEN I went to a business conference and pretty much had no control over my food, and as hard as I tried I went back up to like 203 lbs (seriously I felt like I was served nothing but carbs and more carbs, but yes I did indulge in a dessert one day and in a glass of wine another day).
Now I'm back and hovering between 199-201 lbs.
I'm so sick of trying, of bouncing back and forth, of feeling like I'm denying myself what I want to eat, etc.
Last week I bought tons of veggies but I must have gotten a bad batch at the store because 2 days later EVERYTHING was bad. I was pretty furious and tossed it all out and made due with whatever was left in the house the rest of the day.
Exercise has also been thrown out the window, I'm back in special training at work and the schedule is INSANE. I literally come home drained, and to top it all off the past 1.5 weeks we have been dealing with some sort of animal in our walls keeping us up at night. Exterminator is coming on Tuesday.
And to top it all off last November I found out I was pregnant, hubby and I were overjoyed (married for 6 years) that I was pregnant, but then in January I miscarried, got terribly depressed, gained weight, lost it, etc. I still deal with the pain from this also, we've been trying ever since but no luck (I know it's only been three months). And every time I talk to anyone in the family I'm always asked "are you pregnant?" which is frustrating the CRAP out of me. I now understand how Khloe Kardashian feels! *scream*
I want to lose the weight, but with so much going on, with feeling upset about my miscarriage, working my *** off, lack of sleep (oh man that animal is driving me crazy), and tons of stress, I just feel like I can't do it
I'm so upset I want to ask the doctor for a prescription for phentermine, but I know that isn't the answer for long-term.
*sigh* Anyways, please stop me from calling the doctor and getting a prescription, I guess I just feel like I need some encouragement.
I do plan on starting over with phase 1 of the South Beach diet, I think I just need a total food detox right now.