I've been doing a bit of soul searching lately and I have identified an unusual habit that I have had all of my life and I am wondering if anyone else has done this.
First it is important that you know that I have been overweight for the whole of my 22 years on this earth. I have found that I have this internal monologue that says to me... "no, you can't do that because fat people aren't allowed to do that"
I can remember doing this from as young as 5/6 years old and it ranged in everything from wearing my hair in something other than a ponytail to being allowed to talk about boys in high school.
I have essentially convinced myself that I am not allowed the normal experiences and choices in life because of my weight.
Has anyone else found that they do this?
Did or has it gotten better as you have gotten healthier?