Out of Balance
I have a theory about why this weight loss journey is so hard for me and maybe others as well.
I think it is because my life is generally out of balance. It's been out of balance for as long as I can remember. I spoke to a counsellor recently and she asked me about what I have going in different aspects of my life (occupational, spiritual, recreation, friends, family, community, health, home). We went through an activity of dividing up the hours in a typical week and I spent 75% of my time on work and school, 10% on home, 10% on health, and 5% on friends and/or family, with nothing in terms of spiritual, recreation, or community. Some weeks no hours are spent with friends or family.
The activity reminded me of the things that are missing from my life. I'd like to get involved in volunteering in my community, through my office coworkers volunteer at Habitat for Humanity home builds and I always think 'that would be fun' to myself every time I see a sign up and then I never find the time to volunteer. I also used to have these great hobbies that I enjoyed including jewelry making, reading, painting and I never do any of this anymore. I've also wondered recently if there is a place in my life for faith and I've never explored that. In addition to these aspects that are completely absent from my life, I don't find enough time for friends and family or health.
I think the next step for me before I can really progress is to balance my life more effectively. Too much time is being spent on work and school. Other areas of my life are suffering and I end up stress eating because I'm unhappy. I also justify eating junk because I feel deprived in my life, it takes only a few minutes to stop for some takeout, but it takes hours to go out for coffee or out to a zumba class with a friend. I want to change the system of rewards in my life and find balance.
Anyone else find that being out of balance impeded your weight loss efforts?
1. Achieve healthy BMI
2. Complete first triathlon
3. Run the QCM Marathon
4. Wear a bikini with confidence
5. Eliminate binge eating