Doll - It's a new start. No looking backwards, that won't help you gain anything.. just determine what you want to happen and look forward. I have to live by this every single day (for other reasons)... and as corny as it sounds, it does help. If you say "I can't get by this..." your mind has a funny way of proving you right. Instead replace the "can't" with "will"
To me, your mindset is as important as nutrition and fitness in this task
You are lower than me on the scale, but it doesn't make this task any less frustrating... I hope you are able to dig right in now that the desk is cleared from mess
Good luck to ya!!!