When I first got back on the dieting bandwagon this summer, I had such a hard time with food (don't we all?). I thought about food all the time. While I was eating breakfast, I was thinking about what I'd be eating for lunch. I'd sit at my desk at 11 a.m. willing noon to get here so I could FINALLY eat.
Not to mention my chocolate/restaurant cravings. I thought there was no way I was going to make it.
Well, my friends, I don't know if it's because I hit my lowest weight since high school last week or because it finally moved out of my system, but I am happy to report that my chocolate cravings? Practically non-existent. (The rare occasion that they do hit, I have 60 calorie pudding cups in the fridge to satisfy it. And I only eat one!) I've had a restaurant craving exactly once, and instead of it being for nasty greasy O'Charleys/Applebee's/TGI Friday's/Ruby Tuesday/etc (i.e. the normal fare), it's been for good local food. (My one example is a burger I indulged in from a local joint voted best burgers in East Tennessee last weekend.)
Today, I looked at the clock only to realize that noon had come and gone. I was preparing my lunch at 1:30 p.m. and actually took plenty of time to eat it instead of scarfing it down in my usual 10 minutes or less.
Instead of constantly thinking about food, I'm thinking about things like school (graduation is coming up in December!), work, and planned trips out of town with family and friends. Instead of dreading the gym, I look forward to it throughout the day. I feel so full of energy from the time I get up to bed time. And this is from a person who is usually so exhausted when she gets home from work at 5:30 that she takes a two hour nap!
I'm getting teared up just writing about this, but I finally feel like I'm in control
. Food does not control my life. I am not a hostage stuck in a body I hate with cravings I can't control. I'm a person who craves healthy foods now. I'm a person who is active and enjoys the rush she feels from running that extra mile or adding 10 more pounds to her weight routine. I seriously did not think this was possible, and I just want to thank all of you. Knowing I'm not doing this alone, knowing that some people are busting butt a lot harder than I've ever had to, knowing that you all are experiencing these things right along with me... It's meant the world to my journey. You all inspire me every single day.
What victories are you proud of today?