I'm sorry about the loss of your son, I can't even imagine how heartbreaking that must be.
I'm back here, losing baby weight again (though the baby turns 1 in just a couple more weeks) and could use a buddy. It was so easy to get motivated last time around, but this time around it's harder to find the motivation. For some reason, it's like knowing that I can
lose the weight has made it easier for me to put it off and think "oh, I'll start tomorrow". I got about halfway there and stalled out, I need to get going again.