I've always known that I was thick boned but it wasn't until today that I realized what that means in the scheme of things. For the last 40 pounds I've been losing almost entirely front to back and not side to side and though I noticed I figured sooner or later it'll come off the sides to and I tried not to worry about it. Well today I was putting on my shirt and I realized I could feel and count my ribs down the side you can't see them thank god but they can easily be felt and counted and I realized I can lose some more back fat and maybe some boobs (seriously hoping i don't since I'm only a B) but my chest is pretty much stuck the width that it is. Then later when I went to go lay down to read I realized that when I lay down I can clearly feel the sides of my pelvic bones less then a quarter of an inch below my skin and I realized I'm probably not going to get much smaller side to side there either and I was swept with a deep wave of sadness.
I truely realized for the first time I am always going to be thick. That even when I get down to an exceptable weight I'm still going to look larger then a normal person. That there is nothing I'm ever going to be able to do about that. For a second I felt like all of my work has been for nothing but then I stared at my belly, what's left of my chin, and my back fat and I told myself we still have some ways to go worry about this when you get to goal. Easier said then done. I know I still want to lose this weight and nothing has changed about that. I will work to get it off and it will come off eventually but emotionally I feel slightly heart broken as silly as that may sound.
Has anybody come to a similiar realization? If so how have some of you who've reached your goal weight deal with it?