Today was the first day in probably all of my life that I actually listened to my body.
After stepping on the scale this morning and not seeing any weight loss, I was disappointed but also knew what went wrong. We had a company dinner Friday night and I ate way too much, as well as I having pasta dinners every night this past weekend. (I come from an Italian family. In fact- I think the only thing I really do know how to cook are pasta dishes).. I'm also a few days pre-TOM, and I do know that I hold on to weight until after it passes.
Today, I resolved to eat when I'm hungry, and not wait until I was ravenous for food (which leads to me binging at night). It's a little tricky because I need to eat often, and work sometimes gets in the way. (I'm doing a combination of SlimFast and calorie counting)
So today was the first time I have ever actually listened to what my body was saying. I ate my snacks when I was hungry, and listened to my body to make sure it really was hunger and not boredom or stress eating. And I didn't eat my snacks because they were there, or it was time. I really ate only to fuel myself. I have never done this. EVER.
And it was hard. It's hard to say NO to yourself when all of a sudden you crave food, but are not, in fact, actually hungry. It's hard to stop eating once you've started too. My body usually tells me "MORE!" after I've eaten a snack or a meal, even though I'm not actually hungry anymore (Does that ever go away? I hope so!)
And when I came home from work, and saw my brother brought home a dozen donuts (I was pretty annoyed about it too) I didn't even touch one. I thought about them. But thinking is different from eating
(And really.. a dozen donuts?! why couldn't he just get one... **** if he wanted to share buy 6... but 12?!)
The downside of today- only 15 minutes into exercising and I hurt my hip. It's an old injury ( I guess not too old, the original injury is from this past summer). I immediately stopped exercising because I didn't want to REALLY injure myself. I end up walking funny and in pain, I didn't want the injury to linger so I couldn't exercise tomorrow.
I am assuming that as you get smaller, your required calorie intake also gets smaller. I feel guilty sometimes that I need so many snacks during the day (I couldn't possibly follow SlimFast's 1200 calorie a day plan, and I can't eat their snack bars, so I have my own snacks, ranging from 50 calories to 100 or 120) It almost seems like for every 1- 1 1/2 hours, I need to intake 100 calories. It will be nice when one day, food lasts longer!
Anyway... today was still a good day.
For a while there I almost thought I didn't know the difference between hunger and being bored to death at work. (Or completely stressed out- but that is another thread!